May 17th 2010 is become very important day of my life. I won the lottery, and it is one of the biggest lottery one can won. I had my opening for latihan and quite a experience overall.
I was excited and little bit of feared whole day what will happen in evening as the timing for my opening is decided at 9:00PM PDT. Not sure myself what to expect and am I really going to get opened or not.
So I started from office around 5:28PM PDT and reach home 6:28PM PDT. Had a cup of tea and cookie and lie down to have rest ( as yesterday night didn't sleep properly got up 2:30AM PDT due to toothache). While in office already setup the alarm for 8:00PM PDT , just in case , if go into deep sleep. Had a peaceful sleep and got up 7:56PM again due to little bit of toothache( Yeah I definitely need to see the dentist) . Have a cigarette and get ready and out from my hose by 8:18PM PDT and reached my destination for opening by 8:38PM PDT. so waited in my car till 8:51PM PDT and then went to the door and waited their. As Kenneth mentioned to waited outside till we call you. , so by 9:00PM PDT, Kenneth call me in, and have introduction with everyone ( again don't ask me everyone names, as I am very weak in remembering name in one meeting). And then ask to sit quietly for 2 min. and we all stand up. I stay in center and everyone around me and one of the helper read the opening statement and ask everyone to start the latihan, while I kept my eyes closed.
Initially didn't feel like anything, all the time I praying to god silently, please accept me, I surrender to you (in my own language Hindi). And everyone around me is having a peak of their latihan , a I can hear the voices, and like they are enjoying. Initially only feel like swinging and but later on feel like movement of drunkard person. But all this time my eyes are closed and having fun in drunk man movements. And one time I see big light and start walking towards that but that a funny one, actually when I reached there I felt that is a lamp, so then back out from that place. Then after that one of the helper ask to relax and and finish the latihan. Now when I open my eyes, I am in other corner of the room. Then we relax for few min., everyone congratulate and welcome me to group and hug everyone and thanks everyone for allocating their time for my opening. Another funny part I didn't feel 30 min. are passed by, to me it look like only 5-10 min. is passed. Now I have to leave as, as other helpers has to do another session of latihan for cleansing. And now when I come out from that place, then the real experience started.
I feel full of joy, when driving back to home, it is like I am filled, and earlier I was empty. The feeling is like when you run a long distance and you want to fill your lungs with air, and that feeling when lungs are filled with air. And inside me I want to dance, but driving so can't dance, and outside it is drizzling so light in drizzle fade out but glow in more wide spread due to moisture in air. It is like seeing a world with all together with new eyes. Above all this time first time when driving, I do not feel to light a cigarette. As it is like I will destroy my this joyous feeling ,if I light up cigarette.
And when I reach home, in my apartment, now I am literally dancing and prepare a tea for me, while dancing , it is like you see in movies that person in joy and when cooking or preparing things dancing. It is like you propose someone and other person accept your proposal and you come home with full of joy dancing.
So now I sat down, had a tea, light the cigarette and write down this blog.
